tonight

tonight, im breaking down again.
so tired. i dont know why. dont even know when. all i know is, i want to escape.

i remember the night i ran away from a fight.
i remember the night she stroke my head.
the times she scratch my back and i scratch hers.
the times she bought cooking books for me.
the time we painted my room together.
the times i disturbed her when she was watching her favourite tv show.
i miss her. so much.
the only one who knew me and loved me.

you let me go when im not ready to leave.

5 months, and 3 days.